The girl and 15 Books (Part 1)


At work we have a thing we do, when we have a new member of the staff. Since We are a lot, and it takes a while for us to complete introductions, we do it in a pretty simple way:

  1. Name
  2. Position
  3. How long have we been on the company
  4. Say something that you like (to do, to eat, to whatever)

These are usually my responses:

  1. Kourai (yes, people in real life actually know me with that name)
  2. Director
  3. 11 years, I started in the company since I was really young
  4. I like to read.

Yes. I read. That’s my defining feature. I may not have a lot of time to do it anymore, or even this year in general, but I like to do it as often as I can and I like to set myself unrealistic goals pertaining the amount of books I intent to read on a given year. This year it’s 15, and even though I hadn’t had time to do it much, I actually intend to carry it out. I am a reader.

The Last few weeks I’ve been tagged in a lot of “20 books to whatever”, “Famous person’s list of favorite books” kind of articles, and actually found some really interesting additions for my wish list, which got me thinking of my list of favorite, life-changing books. I’ve read a fair share of famous and non-famous books and even though you can easily access it through my Goodreads account, I decided it was about time to share it here, so, without further ado, here you have:

The Ponicorn’s 15 favorite books

(books that changed, defined and facinated me)


These up here are my favorite books, in no particular order, and I’m going to tell you why.

  1. Of scars and star dust – Andrea Hannah
    heridasI picked this book, merely because I liked the cover, and it turned out to be a surprise. First thing you have to know it’s that it’s YA (for the uninitiated, that means Young Adult) which means, there’s a good deal of teenage drama, angst, snowflakey thoughts and the like; it even plays a little with the idea of something supernatural going on, but don’t be fooled, this is not a twilight story, it’s not the Fault in our stars romance; it’s something else. The narrator is unbelievably unreliable in a way that plays with the tropes commonly associated with YA stories, to deliver an ending that changes everything you understand about the story.
  2. Welcome to Night Vale – Joseph Finknightvale
    I’ve been into Nightvale for about 2 years, I got into it last year, when I found a post on tumblr talking about Sext from the Void, saying that’s the way someone imagined sexting working on Nightvale, it caught my attention. The story itself is not really focused on the podcast, but I wouldn’t go as far as saying that it’s something you can fully enjoy if you don’t have at least a minimum knowledge of how the Podcast story goes. Nightvale has its own intricacies, and even though the protagonists of the book are barely mentioned on the podcast, the mere workings of the town play a relevant role.
  3. Ready Player one – Ernest Cline
    readyThis was recommended by my boyfriend last year and I hold very fond memories of it. I was reading it a little before we decided to finally be together, and when I think of the book I remember how I felt in that moment. Yes, I’m sappy like that. But I digress, we’re kind of into 80’s-90’s nostalgia so this book was super fun to read. If you’re into old school video games, 80’s movies, music, series and internet in general, this book is fun, super-entertaining and well written. It’s not a masterpiece, but i enjoyed it a lot and will read it again very soon. It’s being made into a movie directed by Steven Spielberg in 2018.
  4. Before you sleep – Linn Ullmannbefore
    I read this book when I was about 15 and going through a very strange moment in my life, I was struggling with depression, on a new city, with barely any friends (which, to be honest was not really surprising, cause that’s me, but together with everything else was kind of heavy). The story itself moves between really adult topics, like adultery, mental illness, etc., while presenting fascinatingly charming characters. I felt very touched by the way the story was presented, and read it multiple times in the future. Years later, I even found another book written by Ullmann (She’s a Norwegian writer, so it’s kind of hard to find her books in spanish -I don’t like to reading English), the name was The Cold Song, and even though I was kind of scared to read it and end up disappointed by the weight of the idol I’ve built in my head, I ended up really pleased. No one portrays family realities the way Ullmann does.
  5. Paper Towns – John Green
    paperYes. I have John Green here. I know there’s a huge stigma attached to very representative YA authors and novels, and if the book was made into a movie, god forbid you ever like it, cause your intellect will be in question. But I love Paper Towns, I once read somewhere about John Green saying that Margo Roth Spiegelman is the deconstruction of the Manic Pixie Dream Girl, and I couldn’t agree more. Besides, reading Paper Towns after reading Looking for Alaska brings a sort of emotional closure that even though it’s not meant to, made me feel better. I like the happy ending that is not a happy ending in the traditional sense. I like the feeling that some things are not meant to be, and still, life goes on, and you learn and live through.

So that’s it for Part 1 of my list. The First 5 books. It takes a little to give you my impressions on books guys and I really don’t want to bore you with super long posts.

What’s coming in part 2 or 3? Some Existentialism, Magical Realism, Erotica and more. Very, very soon, like probably this weekend. On the mean time, tell me if you’ve read any of the ones I’ve mentioned here, in this particular list you can find some relatively new titles. and I you did, what did you think of them? Are you planning on reading any?

Tell me!


The New face of AminoKou


So, my portfolio just got a revamp, and it’s looking prettier than ever. I had the last design for about 4 years and even though I loved it (Hey, my favorite color is Grey, of course I loved it!) it was time for a change, actually It had been time for a change for a while, but lets not get into that.

Anyway, the thing is that I finally got a little time to get my portfolio looking the way I wanted, and now it’s here.

Before you say anything, yes, I like my portfolio looking all in black and white, for the longest time my colors were purple, white and black, until I learnt to accept the fact that it’s just not me. I’m pretty set on my monochromes, Black, white and grey are my babies when it comes to personal projects, and actually even now I struggle a lot not to have Ringo-Ish fully on grey, cause this is my colorful space (yes, I said colorful).

screencapture-aminokou-1472923944017Well,  here you have it guys, go check it out, go hire me if you want. It’s in Spanish, so be warned. I don’t really feel like having it in English right now, I may do so in the near future though.

Click on any of the images to go.

Speaking of websites, I’ve been working on another personal one for a project I want to start soon. I don’t want to say much about it, cause it’s still a bit in the air, but you’ll see within the next month.

So, yey for websites? Bye!


The Ponicorn Update: In really simple terms


“I’ve been busy” It’s like a grown up blogger’s mantra. “I’ve been busy. Busy. Busy. B-U-S-Y’ and time is never enough and all that, things happen. We grow and suddenly there’s no time for anything, or exhaustion takes over our beings and we’re drowning on a sea of commitments and things to do.

Or so is how I feel.

Ice Cream Cones



I know Elizabethtown is really problematic and all, and it perpetuates the Manic-Pixie Dream Girl and it’s even considered by some to be the worst movie ever made. But I Like it. I actually like the movie a lot. Maybe it’s because it mentions the main character’s father passing away, and maybe I watched it around the time my grandmother disease was starting to become more noticeable, and I could, kind of, relate to the plot. But I love it.

One of the quotes I love the most about the movie is the following

Drew – You’re kind of great, Claire.  You do know that. Sort of amazing, even.
Claire – Oh, come on! I don’t need an ice cream cone.
Drew – It’s not an ice cream cone. What’s an ice cream cone?
Claire – You know. “Here’s a little something to make you happy. Something sweet that melts in five minutes.”

Ice cream cones.

So, in lieu of me being an adult, being all grown up and -of course- busy. Here, my friends, you have an Ice cream Cone.

The Ponicorn Update: In Really Simple Terms (But trying to make it as appealing as possible)

Making: Websites for independent clients I’m working with, as well as new websites for myself.
Cooking: I’m planning on baking cookies soon actually.
Drinking: water, plain water..
Reading: Armada – Ernest Cline. I found the book and asked my boyfriend if he wanted to read it together, so we’re there.
Wanting: to sleep. Last night it was a long night, i couldn’t sleep until past 3 am.
Looking: At planner stuff. I know I’m going through a kind of no-spend on planner things, but I have a lot of plans.
Playing: As everyone else is, Pokemon Go. I’m part of the red team. <3
Wishing: I had more time to sleep this morning. I’m literally a walking zombie.
Enjoying: thoughts and tumblr posts.
Waiting: for my laundry to finish
Watching: I’m supposed to be watching Gilmore Girls, but I’m kind of back on Avatar: The Legend of Aang.
Liking: The new Gandhi bookmarks, they’re really pretty.
Wondering: How things are going to be like in January
Loving: Chewbacca right this second.
Hoping: That I can achieve certain things I have in mind for this monday
Needing: time
Smelling: vanilla. particularly Vanilla ice-cream.
Wearing: a t-shirt
Noticing: it’s getting dark, and I didn’t expect it to be so late.
Knowing: amounts and quantities I need to work on.
Thinking: About tomorrow
Feeling: still a bit sick
Opening: a series of posts I’m thinking of? I guess it qualifies.
Giggling: At the dog.
So there you have it, a very short update on me.


cycle definition

I used to say that if this moment in my life had a name, it would be “Cycle”. Everything was constant. Everything moved in a pattern, everything happened with the same purpose everyday. And yes, it was all divided in cycles. A Cycle for the day. A Cycle at Work. A Cycle for my week. A cycle every month. And I was actually ok with it.

Cycles are fine. Cycles are comfortable.

Everything was predictable to a certain degree. And I like predictable.

I was fine. It was a cycle and after all, all cycles create the illusion of stability.

Lately, things are not as cyclic as they had been for a while. I notice change, and it’s throwing me off-balance. Things are starting to take shape in a way that defies the status quo that’s been ruling my life for the past 3 or so years.

I know that around december I’m supposed to make life changing decision, and I’m thinking I’m ready to make it. And it seems as if things are arranging to force me into it. But I guess it’s fine. I guess it’s finally time to exit the cycle and my life is preparing me for it.

We’ll see what the next name will be.


Just in 25

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My dear friend Charlotte send these to me over the mail the other day, cause she says (and I quote) “You don’t post anymore, here, answer this, keep me entertained” and since I love her heaps, here you have me.

25 Get to Know Me Q’s

1. What is your middle name?: Elizabeth. Yes, Elizabeth, nothing fancy. It’s even my “Adult” name, I usually introduce myself with that name.

2. What was favorite subject at school?: Spanish and Literature. I was awesome!

3. What is your favorite drink?: I am not too into Alcohol, so I’m just going to say a plain lemonade. Or green tea. I’m so basic.

4. What is your favorite song at the moment?:

I don’t even know why

5. What is your favorite food?: Mexican in general.

6. What is the last thing you bought?: I’m trying to remember about anything relevant, but i can’t. I got gas on my way home.

7. Favorite book of all time?: The Unbearable lightness of being – Milan Kundera. I think Linn Ullmann’s Before you sleep is also on the level.

8. Favorite Color?: Pink and Grey

9. Do you have any pets?: Chewbacca Aminoacido.

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10. Favorite Perfume?: I’m going to sound like a Perfume snob, but I’m crazy over Chanel no. 5. That’s how I usually smell like. Also Ralph Lauren’s Blue Pony (I think the real name is 1).

11. Favorite Holiday?: Halloween!!!

12. Are you married?: Nop

13. Have you ever been out of the country, if so how many times?: I think I’ve been out of the country too many times to count. I’ve been to EU and Cuba.

14. Do you speak any other language?: I speak English and Spanish. I can kind of read French.

15. How many siblings do you have?: I am an only child

16. What is your favorite shop?: H&M? I think…

17. Favorite restaurant?: It’s a local restaurant. Truco 7.

18. When was the last time you cried?: Last saturday. Tough conversations.

19. Favorite Blog?: Gala Darling? I don’t really read personal blogs a lot.

20. Favorite Movie?: I used to say my favorite movie was The suicide Circle, but I don’t think that’s true anymore. One of my favorite ones is Ben-Hur. Secretary is on a similar level.

21. Favorite TV shows?: Just today I was talking to someone about how I don’t really watch a lot of tv shows anymore, but here are some! Steven Universe, Adventure Time, Regular Show, PLL, Once upon a time, The Vampire Diaries and Gilmore Girls

22. PC or Mac?: Mac

23. What phone do you have?: iPhone 6s, Rose Gold,

24. How tall are you?: 5’4″

25. Can you cook?: Yes, but I don’t do it a lot anymore, I want to start doing it again.

So there it is! Did you learn anything about me?

Wayback Machine!


Today, for reasons that are pretty much irrelevant, I decided to use Wayback Machine to check how [] used to look a while back and I’m going to share it with you guys.

1- The very first one! As you can see there isn’t much to show, mainly because the pictures didn’t survive, but back in the time I was crazy over koi fish, so it featured multicolored ink dissolving into water, as well as koi fish. It was pretty. Back in the day I was using CuteNews to post, and it didn’t take long before I decided to make the move to WordPress

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2- This isn’t even the first look I had on WordPress, but it was using the same theme. The first one had a picture I found on DeviantART back when I was still remotely active on that site.

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3- To this day, I still use that drawing to represent myself, and it’s been well over 6 years! This was my last look before moving into my server, not that it changed much when it did. And guess what? I do speak a lot!

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4- To be honest guys, I didn’t even remembered this existed. however, I do remember creating the header and the tag line, which still survives “Ponicorn words on a nifty existence!” It didn’t last for a very long time.

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5- This is the last one I had. I used this puppy for about 4 years, until I decided to change it for the current one *Which to be honest, it’s still on probation* I fell in love with that theme instantly based on the color scheme, and I am yet to find something else I can love more. Maybe there’s something on the way.

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6- Last but not least, the current one. I am still ambivalent about this, I may change it, but I’m fine with it on the mean time.

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While checking these, I started reading old entries, but really old, I’m not talking about 3-4 years ago, I’m talking about 7-8 years ago, back when I started, I don’t know, I’m just nostalgic.

Last night I had a huge fight with my mom, it wasn’t really a fight as much as it was an argument about life choices and all. She’s right about a lot, and I’m stubborn. I don’t really want to talk about it, it just made me think about stuff I didn’t want to acknowledge. I don’t know why I’m sharing this in particular, I’ve just had a lot of people and events in my mind.

About a couple of hours ago, Macky mentioned on twitter something about reading old posts. Are we all going through the same?

*Unexcited yey for memory lane*




“Someday there will be self-driving trucks, and no one will need to be in this cab at all. This won’t be anyone’s job. It won’t be a job. All of us will have to figure out how to define ourselves when we’re not defining ourselves by how we survive.”

That last part, has been in my head. All over my head, trying to catch some sense.

How do you define yourself when you don’t define yourself by the things you do to survive? I’ve been meaning to answer, but I can’t, not yet.

I’ve done so much and at the same time, I’ve dropped so much. I’m kind of lost, and I don’t feel so good. I don’t even know if this is a matter of perspective anymore.

Last night I took a nap that turned into an 8 hour sleep, I woke up at 3, feeling quite alone if I have to be honest, and feeling alone is not necessarily the best for someone who just wants to hide from her emotions…

I don’t know how I get into these feelings, or what these feelings are anyway…

How do you define yourself when you don’t do it by the things you do to survive? I’ve been a teacher, a director, a programmer… and I don’t know…

I’ve been a pony, a Ponicorn… The Ponicorn Princess… And Kourai… and I still don’t know yet…

I need to think more… or maybe I just need a change, and even though many changes are on their way, I need to take advantage of the time I have while things unfold and think, come up with something, set some ground rules for myself or something…

While looking for a picture to use on this post I found this blog post and I think it relates a lot to what I’m saying.

Also the quote I wrote at the top comes from Alice Isn’t Dead.

How do you define yourselves, guys?


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