I normally don’t bring too personal issues here, and certainly I rarely complain here, but this time I think I need to vent a little.
I need to write this on my shoes
I am at this very moment, the victim of my own actions. I made a terrible decision a few days ago, and I don’t feel like handling the consequences right now.
During the last few days I’ve remembered the series of unfortunate events that lead me to create this blog, things I won’t get into right now. I’ve had this website for a little over a year and a half, but hadn’t done much with it until I decided to turn it into a blog, mainly to force myself to find new good and positive things to share with the world. That’s why you barely see any negativity here.
Pretty much halfway through the year I realized I was living a life I didn’t want to live. Not so long ago I read somewhere that we can be both creators and destroyers in our lives. I was becoming a destroyer in mine, a dream-crusher, living a life of misery and sadness. Sinking deeper and deeper into something I consciously choose for myself. So I decided I would take control over the way I live and the things i allow in my life. As the picture above says ‘If you don’t like the road you’re walking, start paving another one‘ I started paving mine. And I started feeling a lot more positive about everything that was happening in my life.
Pretty much the last 6 months of my life was full of absolute bliss, absolute joy and love.
Today? I don’t really feel the love, and that is because I managed to immerse myself in something I don’t wanna be immerse. I have such great plans for 2010, there are a lot of things coming soon, and I hate to be suddenly carried away by things I choose, but I’m not enjoying as I thought I would. I get the feeling that I just took a leap back in time, and I firmly believe in always moving forward and never looking back. I think the only thing I can do is get over it.
I once read Malloreigh saying: ‘I found Money has a fun leaching effect.‘ And it’s true. I am feeling stressed out and bored as hell.
Take this as a life lesson, ponies. Don’t imitate me on this one.
Now, just to give a positive touch to this entry, here you have a video that always manages to cheer me up. I am even dancing it right now.
That’s it, Now that I let everything flow out of my head, I’m feeling much better. I promise I’ll come back with something else soon. As a matter of fact, I’ll come back very soon with an article on Lady GaGa. On the meanwhile, enjoy the week!
- Kou
¿Y no será que planeaste demasiado? Yo estoy de acuerdo en eso de que está en nuestras manos el rumbo de nuestras vidas cuando no nos gusta la situación en la que estamos…pero tampoco hay que planear tanto (Bueno, yo no sé si sea eso, pero bueno xD)…siento que a veces la vida sabe más cuando cambias el camino y entonces sueltas tantito los remos para ver hacia donde te lleva, pero siempre con la posibilidad de tomar otra vez el mando si resulta algo que no quieres.
Espero te sientas mejor pronto
a lo mejor si, a lo mejor si Macky. Si he sobreplaneado algunas cosas y creo que si estoy exagerando mi control sobre algunas cosas. Aunque siento que mas bien en esto es que me confie y cai en un error que ya habia cometido antes pensando que esta vez no me iba a pasar.
pero ya! estoy a muy poco de ser feliz.