A tale of her.

This is a museum of the woman I used to be. A tale of her.

Some days, I really feel like I want to stop using this place to speak, because I speak, I am constantly vocal, but I don’t need to do it here.

Remember a few years ago, when this place used to say “I do speak a lot” by means of pictures or plain words written all over? I still do. I speak a lot, but my voice is different. I am different.

I think it’s been 4 years since Ringo-ish started dying and I’ve been every day more and more comfortable with the idea of letting it go. Maybe you all, (whomever is reading this) saw it coming before I did, but it’s not as if I was unaware of it. I am just not the same anymore.

I started this blog as a collection of memories I needed to keep from the limitations of my mere humanity.

“Age just reveals the facts that always were. Experience uncovers the you that always was.”

I think that’s a quote from Welcome to Nightvale, and a quite proper one for that matter. i’ve always been this.

A couple of months ago I was writing on my journal about an epiphany I’ve had. The last 6 years have been hard and great. I’ve been through hell only to understand the person I am, to accept the feelings and complexities I have towards myself, and I am now able to look back and feel fine about it all.

I feel like a better human, in a deeply rooted sense of self, and through that, I also feel like a better friend, a better girlfriend, a better *role of action*. Any action.

I am in love, deeply and intensely in love, and I am happy about a lot of things in my life, as well as unhappy about a myriad of nuisances.

And I feel this place as foreign and old.

I want to continue writing, and I constantly think of things to say and ideas to share, but I might not do it here anymore. If I am correct, I own ThePonicorn.com and I might continue doing it there, and I am not even sure of when that’s going to happen, but I am ok.

This place, will remain the museum and the testament that it is. It won’t go anywhere, if you ever feel curious.

But I will. I’ll go somewhere.

I started this place about 9 years ago thinking “keep it always positive” and  I think for the most I’ve done that, I’ve talked about my depression in the past years with and upbeat attitude, I’ve talked about me being sad, knowing well that, within time, I’ll be better.

And i’ve been better.

I’ve been better for a while.

The girl and 15 Books (Part 1)

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At work we have a thing we do, when we have a new member of the staff. Since We are a lot, and it takes a while for us to complete introductions, we do it in a pretty simple way:

  1. Name
  2. Position
  3. How long have we been on the company
  4. Say something that you like (to do, to eat, to whatever)

These are usually my responses:

  1. Kourai (yes, people in real life actually know me with that name)
  2. Director
  3. 11 years, I started in the company since I was really young
  4. I like to read.

Yes. I read. That’s my defining feature. I may not have a lot of time to do it anymore, or even this year in general, but I like to do it as often as I can and I like to set myself unrealistic goals pertaining the amount of books I intent to read on a given year. This year it’s 15, and even though I hadn’t had time to do it much, I actually intend to carry it out. I am a reader.

The Last few weeks I’ve been tagged in a lot of “20 books to whatever”, “Famous person’s list of favorite books” kind of articles, and actually found some really interesting additions for my wish list, which got me thinking of my list of favorite, life-changing books. I’ve read a fair share of famous and non-famous books and even though you can easily access it through my Goodreads account, I decided it was about time to share it here, so, without further ado, here you have:

The Ponicorn’s 15 favorite books

(books that changed, defined and facinated me)

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These up here are my favorite books, in no particular order, and I’m going to tell you why.

  1. Of scars and star dust – Andrea Hannah
    heridasI picked this book, merely because I liked the cover, and it turned out to be a surprise. First thing you have to know it’s that it’s YA (for the uninitiated, that means Young Adult) which means, there’s a good deal of teenage drama, angst, snowflakey thoughts and the like; it even plays a little with the idea of something supernatural going on, but don’t be fooled, this is not a twilight story, it’s not the Fault in our stars romance; it’s something else. The narrator is unbelievably unreliable in a way that plays with the tropes commonly associated with YA stories, to deliver an ending that changes everything you understand about the story.
  2. Welcome to Night Vale – Joseph Finknightvale
    I’ve been into Nightvale for about 2 years, I got into it last year, when I found a post on tumblr talking about Sext from the Void, saying that’s the way someone imagined sexting working on Nightvale, it caught my attention. The story itself is not really focused on the podcast, but I wouldn’t go as far as saying that it’s something you can fully enjoy if you don’t have at least a minimum knowledge of how the Podcast story goes. Nightvale has its own intricacies, and even though the protagonists of the book are barely mentioned on the podcast, the mere workings of the town play a relevant role.
  3. Ready Player one – Ernest Cline
    readyThis was recommended by my boyfriend last year and I hold very fond memories of it. I was reading it a little before we decided to finally be together, and when I think of the book I remember how I felt in that moment. Yes, I’m sappy like that. But I digress, we’re kind of into 80’s-90’s nostalgia so this book was super fun to read. If you’re into old school video games, 80’s movies, music, series and internet in general, this book is fun, super-entertaining and well written. It’s not a masterpiece, but i enjoyed it a lot and will read it again very soon. It’s being made into a movie directed by Steven Spielberg in 2018.
  4. Before you sleep – Linn Ullmannbefore
    I read this book when I was about 15 and going through a very strange moment in my life, I was struggling with depression, on a new city, with barely any friends (which, to be honest was not really surprising, cause that’s me, but together with everything else was kind of heavy). The story itself moves between really adult topics, like adultery, mental illness, etc., while presenting fascinatingly charming characters. I felt very touched by the way the story was presented, and read it multiple times in the future. Years later, I even found another book written by Ullmann (She’s a Norwegian writer, so it’s kind of hard to find her books in spanish -I don’t like to reading English), the name was The Cold Song, and even though I was kind of scared to read it and end up disappointed by the weight of the idol I’ve built in my head, I ended up really pleased. No one portrays family realities the way Ullmann does.
  5. Paper Towns – John Green
    paperYes. I have John Green here. I know there’s a huge stigma attached to very representative YA authors and novels, and if the book was made into a movie, god forbid you ever like it, cause your intellect will be in question. But I love Paper Towns, I once read somewhere about John Green saying that Margo Roth Spiegelman is the deconstruction of the Manic Pixie Dream Girl, and I couldn’t agree more. Besides, reading Paper Towns after reading Looking for Alaska brings a sort of emotional closure that even though it’s not meant to, made me feel better. I like the happy ending that is not a happy ending in the traditional sense. I like the feeling that some things are not meant to be, and still, life goes on, and you learn and live through.

So that’s it for Part 1 of my list. The First 5 books. It takes a little to give you my impressions on books guys and I really don’t want to bore you with super long posts.

What’s coming in part 2 or 3? Some Existentialism, Magical Realism, Erotica and more. Very, very soon, like probably this weekend. On the mean time, tell me if you’ve read any of the ones I’ve mentioned here, in this particular list you can find some relatively new titles. and I you did, what did you think of them? Are you planning on reading any?

Tell me!

Firma

The wording of the universe

“Life, happens when you’re making plans, flying high and shaking hands; the song will write you, you don’t write it. I didn’t mean to fall in love, this rhythm that created us. I was running, we collided…”

This is the first original post I’ve written in about 3 months, the rest have been either songs, or repost with commentary; and yes, I am aware that this includes a song, but I intend to write more than just that. My life has been eventful to say the least, and there’s a lot I could tell you, but I’m going to be very selective about what I share with you guys, not because I don’t want to share, but because I  want to keep some things for myself. Still, my life remains not at all interesting, guys… But I’m going to update you on all things, pony-wise.

  • My mom got a dog, her name is Chewie as in Chewbacca. She’s adorable and tiny. I’m not really into dogs (You’re talking to a cat lady here) but that baby is adorable to say the least, and I’m literally dying over her. I’ll make sure to post a picture of her very, very soon.

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  • We moved into a new House, Everything is still a little too messy, and every times I try to do a little, there’s more and more and more left to do. I think two more weeks and I’ll be done with this. But let me tell you guys, the new house is looking good.
  • A few weeks ago I got a surgery, I had my gallbladder removed. I am all fine now, but still recovering I guess. I was told I was going to be able to go back into my life in two weeks (True) but I would still feel tired and in pain for a couple of months (Also true) So I am in that second stage now.
  • Next week a friend is coming to visit. He’s not just visiting me, he has a lot of things to do in the city, but it’s going to be super nice to get a chance to see him again.

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  • Lately I’ve been so into Instagram, it has become my main social network, in fact, I am almost sure that most of the people who check this place, do so because they find the link on my Insta account, so if for some reason you’re into what I post, check it out and follow me!

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  • You know this already (Because of course you do) I got into the Planner Community, and I really think I’ve found my niche. I think I’ve never felt more at peace and more accepted on a community as I feel in the Planner Community; as with everything, I’ve seen things I don’t entirely relate to (More on that on future posts), but in general, I feel so connected. So thank you, Planner Girls (for some reason, we’re only -or mainly- girls).

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  • I’m saying this, with no intent of getting too deep into it, but I am in a relationship. I am with someone I love deeply, and I care a lot about this person. I don’t really want to tell much, cause… quite honestly, I don’t feel too comfortable; this is ours only. I have the feeling none of us want to really talk about it outside of, well, us. But we’re ok. We’re fine. I’m loving this, guys, he is just amazing. Aren’t you happy for me?

So, that’s it, ponies, I’m going to try to come and do a bit more of real blogging, not just random updates on my life every few months. I swear I have about 10 drafts, but for many reasons, I never got around actually finishing any, mainly because I had things I needed to get out of my system, and now that they’re out, I can go back to actually blogging and you guys can go back to expecting posts.

“With you, I found a new way to live, I see an alternative. Now we started, we can’t stop it. I, I didn’t mean to fall in love, last thing I was thinking of was you and me but, we collided…”

Love, ponies and other lovely things,

Firma

Love List for the Ponicorn Soul: Asylum, Utena, Journaling and more

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Things have happened in my life in recent weeks, good and bad. I don’t think I’ll ever say much about the bad things (if I ever do at all) But let’s focus on the good ones, shall we? It’s been a while since the last time I actually did one of this, so let’s take it as a general update on my life.

  • I have more books and I actually became level 2 shopper at my local bookstore (that means, I get double the points for my purchases, which is good cause I can change them for more books, which is how I got Lena Dunham’s Not that kind of girl)
  • Speaking of books, I’m reading Asylum by Madeleine Roux, which is actually a big issue for me. I have a big problem with fear, and being easily scared, so reading this book, as absurd as it may sound, it’s actually a huge accomplishment for me, cause I am kind of exposing myself to something that scares me, and trying to control my responses. Those of you who might have read Asylum, maybe thinking I’m over reacting and the book is not as scary, and you may be right, but you guys don’t understand my struggle and how big of a deal this is for me; so I’m happy and all.
  • I know I have not really been here actively writing, but I’ve been Journaling a lot. I am actually holding two journals, my permanent one, and a journal on the go. I’ve been using my permanent Journal for a while now (picture below) It’s a regular hard cover notebook that I decorated and since I feel it is so personal, I really don’t think I’ll stop using it anytime soon. However, a week ago, I found a notebook that I really liked and I decided to use it as an On-the-go journal trying to document some thought and emotions I’ve been experiencing.

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  • Instagram! I’ve been a lot on Instagram lately! I’ve met some amazing people there, and it has help me get more into the Filofaxing/Journaling community. A long, long time ago, I read an article on Hello Giggles called How Scrapbooking stopped me from running away, and it really resonated with me, cause for a long time in my teenage years I kind of used my journals as scrapbooks, time passed, I started blogging and I eventually stopped using them at all. Now that I am into Filofaxing, I can tell you that it has a little bit of scrapbooking to it and I’m really enjoying it.

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  • Utena! I recently re-watched Utena with a friend and yes, I know I always say I love it and it’s one of my favorite animes ever, but now that I finally re-watched from start to end, I can very clearly remember why. It’s so amazing!! I don’t really like to talk too much about it here, but if you feel compelled to watch it and get your mind blow while you try to understand what is going on, be my guess, you won’t regret it at all.
  • I’m thinking about changing this site a bit. I’m not even sure, it comes and goes. For a while I thought I wanted to make some posts private cause I kinda wanted to hide things from my sight, then I figured I didn’t really care that much for it, but I wanted to change the general feeling of the site, so I don’t know. I might be changing things around soon. The least I can say is that it’s been in my head for a while, so it’s quite possible that it will happen.
  • Paleo Diet! For the last couple of weeks I’ve been trying to clean my eating habits, I’ve talked about it before, but candies and sweets are a big problem for me, so much that I always feel addicted to them, so, a couple of weeks ago, I decided to cut them from my life, and start eating a little better. So far it’s been 29 days since the last time I ate candies (I’ve had sweets from time to time, like birthdays and unavoidable situations) and I’m really happy. I’m trying to eat mostly paleo, but it’s really hard cause I have a Selective Eating Disorder that affects my consumption of fruits, so there’s that. But I’m not whipping myself because of it, I’m trying to actually enjoy it and all.
  • Guys, I seriously can’t stop listening to Chandelier. Send help.

I’m sure there are more updates my babes, but I’ll try to come back sooner to make actual posts about it, rather than lists with chunks of information.

Love,

Firma

P.S. Did you see Katy Parry tonight at the Super Bowl? Girl!!!! and Missy Elliot?? Amazing ladies being Amazing!!!

Ponidays are upon us… (A Guide!)

NOTE: Reposting this, cause it’s that time of the year…

Yes, I tried to mix the words Holidays and Pony to make them sound more like me, and kind of failed miserably…

But still, a few days ago, I was checking my December entries from previous years, and I decided to make a little compilation on X-mas and holidays related posts I’ve done, along with some other kind of useful posts and topics. So here you go: The ultimate Pony guide for the holidays.

Guides

Your Ringo-ish guide to survive the holidays (x-mas edition) – I wrote this back in 2009, but it’s still current, and it’s still a helpful guide for making it through the high profile festivities without going crazy.

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My daily Moleskine – A few years ago, I pulled together this tutorial on how to customize a pocket moleskine into a planner, GTD kind of thing. It’s a bit of work, but still really worth it, if you hate how the conventional planners are organized and you’d like to fix yourself with your own spaces. This year I don’t think I am going to do this from the very beginning, but I am taking a moleskine planner  and then I am customizing it a bit into something similar to this. I’ll let you guys know.

Questionnaires

The year in questions – 37 questions related to the year that’s just ending. Pro-tip: Answer this after christmas.

The best of… – straight forward questions highlighting the best of the year that’s just ending.

Both of these questionnaires are great and simple ways to make quick retrospectives of the year.

Goals

I am not one to tell you how to make and keep your goals, cause quite frankly I’m kind of an expert at not doing it, but still over the years, I’ve always liked to write down whatever I want to achieve during the upcoming year.

What are you planning for 2011? – If you’d like a bit of inspiration, here you have the list of goals and plans I did for 2011; a brief explanation on how I organize them, how I remind myself of them, a couple of techniques I use for internalizing them.

The 88 days project – This is a similar thing based on the fact that every 88 days the cells of your body are completely new cells than the ones forming you 88 earlier, therefore making you a whole new person. I still think it’s a neat way of renewing yourself and accepting new challenges every 88 days.

Gratefulness

This is something that I like to do, but hadn’t really picked it as a habit yet.

I constantly make these lists called Love List for the Ponicorn Soul, which pretty much are thankful lists for the things I love the most about my life. I started them as a way to remind myself of the good things going on in my life when I get depressed, but I think I might as well just write one at least once a month in the future.

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Also, I think I might write one of those for the whole year that is ending. If you want to do the same, up here you have a link to a specific list, but if you need a bit more inspiration, you can always check the Love List tag, as I sometimes make lists that won’t precisely fall in the Love List for the Ponicorn soul format, but still pretty much cover the same concept.

Websites to use

Good Reads – If you’re a reader, every year they organize a reading challenge, You set your own number of books you’d like to read. Next year I am going to 52!

Unfuck Your Habitat

UFYH – Short for Unfuck your habitat. As their slogan indicates: Terrifying motivation for lazy people with messy homes. If your room/home could use a little cleaning and organizing, this is the place to go. Hundreds of tips and techniques on how to start and remain organized.

Running for beginners – I am big on running, and even though I kind of dropped it for the year, I really want to pick it back. The first time I started doing it, this is the method I used. This link is full with a complete guide on how to go from 0 to 25 min running, videos on how to properly stretch, guides to buy good running shoes, etc.

In Class – Though not really a website, but an app for organizing your schedule, notes and homework. Incredibly useful if I say so myself. Sadly, it’s only available for IPad/IPhone.

And I am still on the search of a decent website or app for this, but just as I did during 2011, I am again doing a 52 movies a year challenge. I’ll have it  up on the tabs here for you to see as soon as I start.

Well, that’s it. It took me a bit to compose, but this is my guide for starting 2013, I hope you enjoy it and find it useful. You’ll see me posting a bit more about all these things in the following days.

Lots of holiday love!

Firma

Love List for the Ponicorn Soul

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First one of the year! I’ve been kind of on a good mood lately, and some good and happy things have been going on, so I figured I would share a short list with you guys.

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  • My boyfriend visiting last week. We actually didn’t do anything but driving around and talking, but it was pretty good, I got to show him all the places I usually go to in the city. I loved the day.
  • Starting on my new job. I am not legally allowed to share specific details on my job online, but I can tell you I’ve been having some training and I feel a little more confident I can do it well. I sometimes forget how much I love doing what I do.
  • Pretty Little Liars coming back tomorrow. I am not sure what to expect, there have been hints and details dropped by the cast and producers, but still, I’m anxious to find out!
  • #PemberleyDay. As a good Austenite I was eagerly expecting this day. I can only say, Gigi is super cute and the cast gets even more perfect day by day. I think the only character missing in action is Lady Catherine, I really want them to show her, cause, seriously, how can they have the confrontation scene without showing her? Unless… mmmm…
  • Mate nail polish. It took me forever to finally get it, but now that I do, I don’t want to wear anything else.

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  • If you’re my close friend, there’s one thing you surely know about me: I love Ben-Hur. My mom gave me this set up here, it’ the 50th. anniversary edition and it includes a book of pictures and Charlton Heston’s journal while portraying the character. I just love it that much!
  • Reading a book my boyfriend recommended. I have so much to talk to him about it.
  • Keeping my 52/52/365 projects so far. Specially the 365 pictures, cause that tends to be the one that dies first, the other I can always catch on, but not that one, so yey for me!!

Little Things?

  • Washing 90% of the laundry I brought from home.
  • Being able to wear skirts again (it has been very cold)
  • Developing a small routine before going to bed.
  • The upcoming trip to Uruapan.
  • Having long talks with my best friend Karla.
  • Planning a little thing I want to accomplish by the end of the year
  • Organizing the revamp of ParteFORMA.
  • Coming back to Twitter.
  • Having nice co-workers.
  • Finding a Feminist Group in my city.

There’s just so much going on, but most of it is happy. I feel ok, and better… And it’s kind of late, so I am going to bed.

Goodnight!

Firma

A list of things that I appreciate in my life

  1. mosaicaffddc1b0f4e5577294e2cf91584ecfad8c5311bMy boyfriend. Fernando.
  2. My mom.
  3. My two cats.
  4. Shiina Ringo.
  5. The colors pink and grey.
  6. Moles and tattoos.
  7. Yogurth.
  8. Being able to speak.
  9. Purses and their contents.
  10. Learning skills.
  11. Being part of my boyfriend’s life.
  12. Boots.
  13. Underwear.
  14. Apples.
  15. Nelly Furtado.
  16. My friends.
  17. My boyfriend’s cooking skills.
  18. Personal and emotional independence.
  19. Books.
  20. Movies.
  21. Pretty Little Liars.
  22. Skirts
  23. Fourth wave feminism.
  24. Tiny fluffy animals.
  25. Being in love.

Firma

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