This post was meant to be written yesterday, but i was too tired and sleepy to do it, so i’m here.
Yesterday I was feling really sad in the morning, but i mean, TERRIBLY sad, quite odd, since i’ve been keeping myself positive for the last 2 months. I left home just because i knew i had to, and i went to run some errands.
About an hour before I had my class, I just couldn’t hold it. There were on the street a lot of things reminding me something realy sad that happened in my life about 3 months ago, So i had to sit down for a moment in one of the many parks in my city.
I was listening to music, and just observing everyone, feeling pitiful and useless.
And then i decided i had to write, i didn’t know what about, but i had to. Other wise i would’ve ended up crying. Not good, considering i don’t like to cry. So i started.
I must tell you, thanks to this moment, i discovered something to beat sadness, to just kick it away. Write. But not just write about randomness, cause sometimes, randomness can be so, so sad. Since i couldn’t really figure out what to write about, I started thinking of my morning. My morning had been so nice and wonderful and warm and magnificent, but it was suddenly ruined. I was not only sad, but upset about it
So I decideed to focus on that very moment I was living, and I don’t mean, the moment full of sadness, but the physical moment, everything that was surrounding me, everyone around me, the park, my clothes, me. EVERYTHING. And i started enouncing all the things I liked about that specific moment: My clothes, my pictures, my thoughts, the people, Everything.
And not just enouncing it, but stating it clear and loud: I love Peggy Lee, I love writing lists with positive things, I love pretty girls, I love taking cold showers, I love, I love, I love. I filled 5 pages with ‘I love’ Sentences with little hearts on the side. I felt so much, much better.
What did I learned from this? Of course, i had my reasons to be sad, and of course everyone deserves to be sad once in a while, It’s part of life, you have to live it, to know what happiness is about. But sometimes, you just have to move out of it, and you have to realize that not everything around you in that very moment is sadness, you can’t be hating every single little thing surrounding you. So focus on that. Make a list, think about it, enounce it, state it out loud, engrave it in your skin. Whatever it is, just make it real and let it come out of you.
You’ll remind yourself there’s something amazing waiting for you outside that circle of sadness.
Amino Love and Acid Kisses